Infiny

( WIP LIST OF IR/RELEVANT JIN + RAGNA SONGS )

L-Lol

so is it bad
that no matter how amazing a female cosplay is
if the person doesn't have the right uuh equipment, theres this voice in my head like
NO
NO ITS ALL WRONG
YOUR TITS ARE TOO SMALL ]:

OR WHEN IT COMES TO FANART
like wow you drew her totally awesome
BUT HER BOOBS ARE WAY BIGGER
ALRIGHT?!?!


this doesn't count for chicks with generically large boobs beneath their schoolgirl outfit
BUT LIKE
CHICKS IN REVEALING COSTUMES
WHERE THEIR BREASTS ARE PART OF THE OUTFIT
like Litchi or or Youko from Gurren Lagann


That's why I don't draw girls

I used to be able to (well like this was like in elementary school so the definition is very liberal) draw girls and guys who looked like girls
but now I can only draw guys (and girls who look like guys).
It sucks ]:

I can't remember the last time I drew a pretty girl
BUT
I
WILL DRAW LIGHTNING
AND SHE WILL BE HOT
DAMNIT

SO
I
SHOULD REALLY WRITE ABOUT VINCENT BENIVERE


its hard though

because I don't want to make him too mushy
and I mean I like him but he's a psycho and pretty sociopathic
sure hes in ewy goey love with Lewis BUT STILL
HES NOT ALLOWED TO BE HAPPY
just idly content

SO I REALIZED

that while I like shipping male rivals together a lot, I don't really care for epic slash HATESEX PAIRINGS or anything?

Apparently I'm much fonder of girl-guy hatesex couples?!?!

Lol. I don't know why. Hateful women are just awesome?

THAT SAID
lol
the artist of derek has been drawing all this TerumiXHazama stuff on her blog. WHICH TAKES CARE OF MY PROBLEM EVEN MORE?!?! it kind of amuses me but now I'm kind of all lol and DOES HAZAMA LIKE EXIST EVER STILL OR DID TERUMI JUST LIKE KICK HIM OUT OF HIS BODY OR POSSESS HIM WHEN HE WAS REALLY YOUNG??
LIKE ITS PLAUSIBLE OR SOMETHING

But I mean, hell, I ship Megane!Katsuya/Katsuya harder than any other couple in Kichiku Megane ]:
Like the whole reason I played the game was not to get the ending of any couple, but to unlock all the M!Katsuya/Katsuya extras. I'm not even kidding.

The fandisc made my heart burst with happiness at their marriage/newlywed life (and it was so full of crack I cried with lulz).

OR MAYBE TERUMI KILLED NINE BECAUSE OF HIS EPIC FEELINGS FOR JUBEI!!

every problem is now solved.

WHY AM I SO TALKATIVE WHEN I HAVE TO DO THINGS




anyway so I actually don't really mind Jin paired with other people (except Noel and other people he would just dominate and be in extremely unhealthy relationships with)
Jin/Hakumen ultimate narcissism shipping gogogoo

BUT LIKE
RAGNA
CAN ONLY BE WITH JIN

I mean I like him interacting with girls (Noel, Tao, Litchi), but I'm really blah on him actually uhh romantic with them

which is kind of fucked up for Ragna??

But I guess its more like I don't think Jin can actually have a 'real' decent relationship with anyone (except Tsubaki but she is like so much like his sister oh who am i kidding he's already passed the incest barrier with so I can't really be like NO, he doesn't like Tsubaki or Noel because they REMIND him of his sister when he's totally gay for his brother err EXCEPT TSUBAKI BUT SHES LIKE A LESBIAN OKAY THATS WHY THEY CANT BE TOGETHER. But if she wasn't, she would have to be Jin's only, so even if Jin does looove her she wouldn't be able to feel as loved as she'd like, therefore having to run into Noel's arms and)

COUGH SO even if Jin is uhh dating/sexfriending someone HIS HEART STILL BELONGS TO NIISAN whereas unless Ragna is constantly confronted with Jin's feelings, he'll FORGET AND THEN JIN WILL BE SAD AND WOULD HAVE TO KILL RAGNA'S GIRLFRIEND AND I JUST DONT WANT PEOPLE TO DIE FOR NO REASON ALRIGHT???

that said my final verdict on Hazama/Terumi pairings is more like
CANT HE JUST LIKE WOMEN
THAT SOLVES ALL OF MY PROBLEMS I'm kind of interested in him with Koko and Tsubaki and Noel or even Rachel OKAY

Terumi and Ragna is like NO. NO WAY IN HELL.
and Terumi and Jin is like No, but I would take this over the former WHICH IS GREAT BECAUSE EVERYONE JUST DRAWS TERUMI/RAGNA ANYWAY
/tiny sob

Man
so I have this completely fanon Ray/Saijo relationship in my head
I MEAN COME ON YOU HAVE A MOSTLY SILENT HERO AND RAY WHO YOU SEE FOR LIKE TEN MINUTES TOTAL
well on the normal ending
I imagine he gets some more screen time in the good ending!?
But the point is this relationship exists entirely in my head ]:

Maybe I'll just write a big Everyone x Saijo fic because I kind of like him with Arthur also
I LIKE HIM WITH EVERYONE


this is like one of those fandoms where i wont be able to read fic for it until years after ive written my fic

IM LIKE THAT WITH BLAZBLUE LOL
because I've thought about my characterizations like SO MUCH that I'm going to be DEPRESSED if mine are completely off the characterizations in the majority of fics!!?!!
I mean still yeah its fanfiction and everyone has their own views on the characters BUT IF THERE ARE INCONSISTENCIES ILL REALLY FEEL LIKE I OVERLOOKED SOMETHING BIG IN THE PLOT AND doubt myself and stuff looool
I have to like talk myself into it
o-oh hay... theres a--theres a new Blazblue fic. awesome. i should read that
tomorrow. yeah.
five days later /peeks
although if there was more Jin/Ragna stuff out there I'm sure I'd read it a lot faster ]: But I'll still be nervous/reluctant ahaha

I pretty much either write or read for a fandom?!!?

anyway I should really write my lab report now so I'm gonna do that

hdfkdsjfs i would really like something extra with this game ]]]:
apparently there are a few short stories on the website but theyre in japanese /depression

because like no one really goes in to depth about everything?!
I want to know mooore damnit

that said I will probably write terrible fic shortly
shinji x saijou
and ray and saijou bwahaha

OKAY I BEAT IT WITH THE SUCK ENDING

But pretty much everyone died so
I have to save Shinji.
which involves saving yumiko I guess?!
or just getting the good ending period?
Anyway the point is
REPLAAAY

but only after I watch all my scenes...

so Saijo orders always Tira Misu

just saying that he's totally me /and therefore awesome

also why is the most obvious love V of doom going to be
11 year old girl --->Atsuki<-----13 year old girl
WHEN ALL ATSUKI WANTS IS SHINJI ]: also told Imagaki that I wasn't interested in a girlfriend and he was all oh are you not into girls well I can understand that... if you wanna a talk about it I can help you out etcetc. Also Kyousuke lives with him (well in the building) o=


lol i should really go to school because I did horrible on my test
but i also want to skip
i'll just make sure to study hard...

Still playing Lux-Pain. I figure the game will be over at the end of the month, so I have 15 more days to go... IM HALFWAY THROUGH ALREADY?!?! EPIC SOB

( homohomocomments )

ALSO WHAT THE HELL
ALL THESE PEOPLE ARE LIKE
LOL BBL GOING TO SHINJI'S HOUSE
WHAAAAAT BUT I WANT TO COME ]]]]]]:
C-CANT I GO TO YOUR HOUSE TOO SHINJI ]:

SO I BOUGHT VIDEO GAMES!!!

I still need to play Mana Khemia 2 which I bought when I got Dissidia, but I'm actually quite diligently playing Lux-Pain!?!

I was really uhh torn about getting it because people liked it, but also people didn't like it, so i was just like 20 dollars is too much ]]]:!
And since at gamestop its buy two used games get one free, I decided to go ahead and get Crisis Core and KH RE:CoM (which I've been meaning to forever) and get Lux-Pain free. Heh. Now I can't complain about wasting my money even if it sucks!!

Although I rather like it, but its probably because I'm a relatively boring person who can play
GO AROUND AND TALK TO PEOPLE
ALRIGHT
POKE SOME STUFF WITH YOUR STYLUS FOR LIKE THREE SECONDS
GOOD JOB!!
NOW GO BACK TO TALKING TO PEOPLE

In fact I like it a lot better than games like
okay you can talk to like two people for five seconds
NOW FIIIIIGHT
oh god can i have some story or something
NO GO FIIIIGHT
but i dont want to fight anymore ]]];
WELL ALRIGHT FINE HAVE YOUR STORY
yaaay
OH NO STEVES IN TROUBLE FIIIGHT
w-what i hardly had any free time
DO YOU WANT STEVES BLOOD TO BE ON YOUR HANDS :|

/staaaares at eternal poison


That said, I'm shipping pretty much everything with the main character, except for numerous girls and old people.
My favorites are definitely Shinji (he's literally freaking adorable and he has a decent voice-- besides he's a nerd and omg I LOVE CUTE NERDS I want to hug him all the time why can't he be nice to me ]:) and Akira (mostly because you have a lot of time to talk to him and I want to comfort him..!!)

Of course I also have a soft spot for Rui-- she's really sexy and I'm pretty sure she wears glasses in class, and she's just a generally cool girl who isn't annoying at all ♥. I like Ryo, the resident Megane bookworm because he's the generic intelligent glasses type and he's just groovy. Arthur is whispy and I am kind of looking forward to talk=ing to him once he's sane and out of the hospital... Meilin is luls <3 and Makino is cute and wears glasses, but I'd like to spend more time with both of them.

I BETTER BE ABLE TO DATE THESE CHICKS DAMNIT
but I dont think so?
there are so many though ]; you'd think I'd be able to

Terumi finally makes an appearance in one of my fics!1

Title: Crucify
Series: Blazblue
Pairing: Jin-->Ragna
Rating: PG
Comments: This fic is another uhhh take on The Incident so its along the same lines of Malcontent. Just more 14yo!Jin angst ;]

( but Saya, this is the way he's been living all along )

So I've been a part of this chat for the better part of a year now (well probably longer but I'm a very uhh random goer) and I've been posing as a guy since day one. Now I don't know if I'll ever tell anyone that I'm a girl!?
I mean, I am kind of womanly in my er espeech mannerisms, and new people generally think I'm a chick. But I've just been on so long that people have generally accepted my manliness, and I have other people to back me up.

PROS: I can make far more inappropriate and sexual comments and bad jokes; any inappropriate sexual comments thrown at me can be taken with a grain of salt; underage girls always dig me

CONS: I can't talk about girl stuff that I really have an opinion on; I don't get random pms asking about cybering (its very depressing); no underage boys to dig me ]: (yes I really am an underage opposite sex magnet on the internet I DONT KNOW WHY)

So I'm pretty on writer's burn out lol.
I have a couple ideas rolling around in my head but they're not nearly as well formulated as I would like and I'm kind of tired and should really be doing something related to my school work...

I still would really like to write something today ;[

Woah so it's been about a little more than a year and a half since I last read Godchild (and wrote this (massively spoilerish!!) fic which I have been meaning to post on ff.net, uh since), and because I've been feeling terrible, I wanted to go ahead and reread it.

I have a rather deep fondness for Godchild (and Kaori Yuki) very much and, lets just say that my love of manservants is pretty much entirely fostered by her and possibly this manga. Riff is awesome and I want him to be my butler (all night long). On the subject of such pairs of servant and master (although I'm sure this has been addressed by several people), I really think that Cain would really click with Ciel from Kuroshitsuji because they are both uh broken, and seem to have the same sense of humor and personality.

I CRIED

I always do ];
There are like three parts where I cry even though I've read this series like five times xDD
First is in book five or six where CAIN CRIES AND HE MAKES ME CRY BECAUSE CAIN DOESNT CRY BUT HE IS AND WOE
Then of course ]; the event in my fic. I feel bad for Cassian. Every single time...
and then the finale with Cain and Riff. it's just fairly emotional and heartwarming but still depressing!1

so yea my mom started watching NCIS sometime this year
and because I hang out with my mom a lot, I of course got dragged down the bandwagon!!

Anyway, NCIS is one of my favorite shows
Theres like, almost no one I don't love.
The person I like the least is probably Tony hahahah
And I lovelove Ziva. Which means I'm not cool at all with Tony/Ziva or Gibbs/Tony which are probably the most popular pairs? lol... The only people I like with Tony are McGee and Kate?!
And I don't like Gibbs/Jenny or McGee/Abby.
Other than that, I pretty much like anyone with anyone else?
My favorites are probably Gibbs/Ziva and Tony/McGee.
I also hold a soft spot in my heart for literally anyone (but Lee) and Jimmy. Especially Jimmy and Ducky ;]

I love McGee very much (so much that I'd date him remembarrr), but Ziva is definitely the coolest. Like, I love her to death.



That said I have a terrible sore throat right now
I really hate my life. I literally only get sick ON MY OWN TIME ]:
This is like my fucking four day weekend WHY AM I SICK I WANT TO DO THINGS OKAY GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR

That said I need to write two (short) essays in the next two and a half hours
and all I can fathom is
aaaaa... Sakurai Takahiro...

I wonder if Are You Alice will get an anime/OVA

ALRIGHT WORKIN

MAYBE



if
I someone managed to pour myself into my studies, my life would feel more complete! Instead of spending all this time looking at walls and open words documents and stupid videos on youtube, I could be studying! Doing homework! just plan learning!!? Entering essay contests!!

but I just cant do it ]=
I'd rather LOOK AT THIS WALL
EVEN IF IT MAKES MY SOUL CRY FROM LACK OF PRODUCTIVITY

I really can't be hyped up about learning.
It's like oh thats cool
not OMG INSPIRED LIKE BUUURNING

Anything I'd actually like to do for my life IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH AT
I CANT EVEN BE A VIDEO GAME TESTER BECAUSE I SUCK AT VIDEO GAMES

I really just want a job where I don't have to talk to anyone.
Ever.



I think I'm going to end up changing my major
to like Accounting
or Technical Writing. Ah, the laborious love of writing computer manuals.


Actually I think I'll major in history.
Slightly more useful than an english degree right?!?!